Deviation

So lately I have been bored with life. No, more like I feel like I'm suffocating in it. I'm becoming one of those working stiffs. Sacrificing fun to work and pay my bills. I don't go anywhere, I don't do anything. I am essentially becoming everything I told myself I would never be. I hate that everything around me looks so familiar and boring. All that once glittered is now beige. I'm hitting a breaking point and it's made me think about one aspect of my life that I think it bogging down on me the most. When I go to work, I literally hate every moment of it. I need a change. I don't think I will ever be happy with work unless I get to do something creative. And regarding this, I have been mulling over a few options in my head:


School. Now I've always been weary with this. Hence why I have never yet gone. One hesitation of course is money, seeing how this would have to be all paid for by myself entirely. Also I wonder how far it would take me. Seeing how many people who have gone through school never use what they went for rendering the time and money useless. And art isn't exactly a skill you train for and become a specialist. Also I am weary about the idea of my work being picked apart by teachers. I get really defensive and argumentative about it. I wonder if my stubbornness would be problematic. And what should I go for? Comicbook art? Illustration? Though, I know doing this would improve my skill. A degree would be a good things to have.....and it would def get me moved to bigger city. Seeing how the schools I have looked at are in either Chicago or Minneapolis.




Publishers. I have for years been tossing around the idea of sending my 'Evie Spooks' comic to a publisher. I don't know why i never got my shit together and done this. Well, maybe it's because I don't know if I have full confidence in the project. So much of the story is in my head and it comes out in comic strip form, which I guess it ok. But is it developed enough to be reviewed? And if so, is it good enough? I guess all these things are rather dumb because I could still give it a shot. I mean worse case scenario(and most likely) they will reject it. Though in that case I would have at least tried and perhaps I would get feedback as to what was wrong with it, and improve.




Webcomic?Another idea is to turn Evie into a webcomic. For this I would need a website. Again I have the ever present doubt that people would even read it or care. Would it be a waste of time? Many people who have done web comics have actually become successful and were able to make a living with it. Another problem presenting itself though is that I am absolute shit at promoting myself. I don't know how to get people to want to read my stuff. I mean I have had a deviant art page for years and it hardly gets glanced at....IDK it's a possibility though I suppose.



So what do you think? Would Evie be something worth reading? Would school be worth it for someone like me? Should I try my hand in the internet world? Or do I just need to start by being in another place? Taking time to do something different? All I know is something needs to change before all the spirit gets sucked out of me. Right now I'm not living, I'm existing. This seems like a place to start.

More of my Evie stuff and other art stuff can, as always, be found on my DeviantArt page: http://sammicula.deviantart.com/